Wish I could see the future.
p.s. I revamped my acting site. Take a look!
Sitting here awake at 5am, my mistakes come to haunt me. The whole house is still, except for a dog that moves it’s ear and opens one eye to watch me tip toe out of the bedroom and down the hall. I can’t sleep. My mind is racing with opportunities unfulfilled, roads taken in error, and tasks yet to be done. I tread my way down to the kitchen where the kettle sits idly waiting for my appearance, and meet an old friend, Mr. Earl Grey. We sit together a while, but even he can’t shake the shadows in my mind.
That’s why as a rule, I don’t like to be awake at 5am.
I was recently cuddling with my baby and had this crazy thought: She’s part of my body. Well, not actually, we’re not Siamese mother-daughter of anything, but she was grown and created out of my body material. She grew inside me – we shared a blood supply. That’s a freaky thought, that you share a blood supply with another person. I was a little freaked out. Then Andrew said, ” Yeah, you did good. High five!” and she grinned her toothy grin right on cue. I did do good.
On the same note though…
I quit! She’s in bed, Andrew away for the night at work and I quit! I quit being a mama. I’m going to go watch Stargate SG1, play Civilization on my computer, and have a stiff drink of good ol’ scotch.
This Mama’s off the clock!
p.s. Happy Birthday to my Husband! I might even let you sleep in today….maybe.
p.s. Some outfits suck. This was one of them.
Crap. Andrew reads this blog…which means I’m going to be doing a lot for him. But it also means there’s a lot more chocolate and foot massages in my future.
I can live with that.