Lately I find myself browsing Etsy more and more. I’m longing for the handmade, the special, the unique and Etsy is where I can find it. But even there a lot of the things look the same, or very similar, and I find myself once more trying to find the unique and the special amidst all these handmade pieces. It sometimes feels overwhelming and I have to step away and withdraw from the on flux of materials and colors, but sometimes if I persevere I can find my way to gems like This Enchanted Pixie. I love this collection of handmade pieces – they’re full of whimsy and a free spirited feeling. This necklace makes me think of walking on the beach on a cool day and hearing the waves crash, while this one makes me remember strolling down the side streets of Paris with a macaron in hand. These treasures are why I always make my way back to Etsy, like a friend full of inspiration, it’s always there.
I’m going to confess something that I’m not sure I should confess but I kind of need to because it’s weighing on me and I need absolution. Here goes:
Andrew often snores, and so I have to wear earplugs because I can’t sleep through it. He was going to be leaving for work at 7am, so he told me he would get up with Baby and wake me just before he left. But at 7am she still wasn’t sleeping and he wondered if he should go up and take my earplugs out, but he decided that he didn’t want to wake me. Not a big deal since I usually hear her crying through the plugs anyway. But I didn’t this time.
I woke up at 8:45am…and panicked! My first thought was irrational – that he had left for work and left her unattended alone downstairs. My second thought was fearful – that something happened to her and she’s not breathing in her crib. I ran into the room and found her lying there wide awake sucking her thumb. That’s when the panic and fear were replaced by sheer, unadulterated guilt. I had neglected her. She might have been there crying awake for an hour and half and no one came for her! Yes, she was safe and could not come to any physical harm in her crib, but the thought that she might have felt neglected or abandoned for so long sent me into a downward spiral of guilt.
I hugged her and apologized to her three times and explained what happened *though she probably didn’t understand* My guilt let her watch two shows that morning and have a cookie as part of breakfast in the living room.
Mother’s guilt!
I felt better the next morning when she slept in until 8:30am – that means I might not have ignored her or if so then perhaps only for 15 minutes. Phew!
Top – F21; Dress – Lulus; Ring – Spotted Moth; Tights – Hue; Boots – Locale. |
Oh goodness gracious my mouth gets me in trouble! I’m one of those people who just says things, sometimes without thinking. I say them because I think they’re funny, or true, or odd. But sometimes I don’t realize what I’m saying until it’s far too late, and I can’t take it back. I realize an hour afterwards that what I said could be totally interpreted in another way – a mean way, or inappropriate way. And that’s not where I’m coming from at all. I don’t mean anyone ill will, unless you’re that idiot on the crowded bus who’s shouting into his cellphone like the person is two football stadiums away. And even then, I don’t wish him ill will….maybe a hemorrhoid or two. But otherwise, I very much believe in live and let live. I just wish my mouth would get on board.
Really. Please? Will you just once, co-operate please?
I say stupid things a lot: wise-cracks, smart ass comments, sarcasms, inappropriate examples, dirty jokes, must I go on? Things that I regret or cringe at when I’m trying to fall asleep, and wish I could take back because they were stupid, dumb, embarrassing, TMI, or really just take your pick. I wish that I could learn to hold my tongue. I’ve been on this planet a certain number of years, and I still haven’t gotten the hang of it.
I’m just thankful for the friends I have that have learned to see past this little flaw quirk of mine, and see that I’m fiercely loyal, trustworthy, dependable and well-meaning. I have and will drop everything if a friend’s in need and be there to support you if you need it. Just ignore the things I say which might be stupid, dumb, embarrassing, TMI, or really just take your pick.
Top – thrifted; Dress & Socks – Ruche (sold out, but available at Modcloth) ; Tights – Hue; Shoes – Clarks; Pinwheel pin – c/o Blue Eyed Owl. |
I wanted to wear something fun and innocent today, and for some reason lately I’m reaching for bold blues, or radiant reds, so it was only natural that at some point I would combine the two. I need to thank the two fabulous make-up artists, Jessica and Francesca, on the set of my recent film shoot *here and here* for showing my that I can indeed where bright red lipstick despite my thinner than desired lips. Oh and by the way, I’m loving this neutral eye palette I recently got, it goes amazing with everything! Today I wore Virgin, Sidecar, and Darkhorse.
This royal blue dress has become a beloved item in my closet, and whenever I wear it simply can not resist the urge to wear these gorgeous pins I received from Liz from the Blue Eyed Owl. It’s like they were made for each other.
p.s. if you like this look, please go here and ‘like’ it for the world to see. Thanks!
Sweater – swapped; Belt – F21; Dress – Lulus; Tights – Hue; Shoes – Payless. |
I’m really getting into red lately. It’s a color I used to really stay away from. Not sure why, maybe I just thought it was too bold? But lately, I’ve been really embracing it. It’s been a great love affair so far. So when I won a shopping spree from Lulus.com. I knew I just had to get myself a red dress. The pleats and collar of this one instantly caught my attention! There’s something very retro about it. Plus, I love the mix of innocence and elegance. Of course, it wasn’t the only thing I got, but you’ll just have to wait and see future outfit posts to see the other lovely things I nabbed.